I knew the difference between the two (NP versus Pdoc) but I was told I was on the wait list for a pdoc...but I guess maybe the psychiatric NP is what I'm gonna get.... Well, better than nothing, I guess. Maybe better than a pdoc even? My best friend (also bipolar) says her pdoc spends about 3 minutes with her, shoves meds at her, and sends her on her ways...but the NP that works for him who sometimes does his med evals actually talks to her, listens to her, and prescribes meds more appropriately. I just feel like I am constantly getting the runaround. I've needed help for so long and I have yet to see a shrink. Ever. To be honest, while I am grateful to at least finally be in a mental health system that will be taking over all my mental health care, I wish I could at least just see a damn pdoc, even once. I mean, even all of my diagnoses have come from GPs and disability (and even my eval guy yesterday) has mentioned this disdainfully several times, as if they doubt the validity because its not from a pdoc, but I can't get to see one! Argh!! Frustrating. When I mention that I've seen psychiatric NPs they say, "Um, that's not a doctor and they cannot diagnose." Yet, aside from my GP, that's the only bone the system will throw me. Sheesh.

Yeah, the disability eval was really weird. I just didn't know what to think. I wish I knew what he was going to report to disability! I'm so curious. I know I won't get to know, but I sure wish I did. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I appreciate it. I was kicking it around in my head yesterday in circles all day long. I don't know why I over think everything like that, although it's probably a combo of my OCD kicking in and my desperation to have my application for disability approved (although I do have realistic, meaning low, hopes). Thanks again, Lauru.