LD

First of all you have a lot going on and with the wedding coming up it is not surprising that all sorts of unexpected emotions are being stirred up. As sufferers of mental illness we do have to keep tabs on what we are feeling, but as Freud said sometimes a cigar is just a cigar

Which is not to say you shouldn't be looking for more happiness right now... you should be and you deserve it. {{{{{{{{LadyDragus}}}}}}}}

I would bet that when the day arrives, your love for him will be shining so brightly that everything will fall into place and you will be as happy as can be. It will be a magical day! It will be a day that you don't have to worry about others, or school, or anything else.

So for now don't worry about how you will be feeling on your wedding day... just take care of yourself now. I really hope you can find some relief from the physical pain. Could stress be aggravating it?

And any time you trust you can let your guard down, do so. Don't worry about how you should feel, just how you do feel, and take care of that.

Take care of yourself. Great things are in store.

{{{{{{{{LadyDragus}}}}}}}}}