So what will be my motivation to get out of bed early tomorrow?

Last week on Tuesday they were supposed to pick me up for evaluation, I got up early, no one showed up, I found out late in the afternoon that there had been a delay.

I didn't know whether they would be there Wednesday or not, but since the evaluation was set up on Monday and it was supposed to go into effect the very next day, I thought "delay" might mean "one more day" reasonable, no?

But the next morning the alarm went off and I just couldn't drag myself out of bed. I went back into a restless sleep waiting for the doorbell to ring or a horn to honk. Got out of bed and nothing. I emailed. Thursday I stayed in bed. Nothing, and no response to my email. Friday I stayed in bed. Nothing. But I did hear back from them, they had set me up to take me to the evaluation the following Monday. I got through the weekend with that hope in place.

Monday morning, well they were an hour late but they showed up. And I did get an email in the morning saying they were running late. They took me in for the evaluation, and said I was OK for the partial program, insurance covered, everything. They would pick me up. I specifically asked when it would start and they said "tomorrow".

So Tuesday I get up early. It is getting harder and harder to get out of bed in the mornings. Nothing. But I do hear from them, they are sorry, there was a problem with the transportation service. They would come tomorrow.

Today is tomorrow. I wake up early and get dressed. Nothing, and no word from them. I go back to bed.

So I plan to be prepared tomorrow. After all, I want this, and I'd rather err on the side of being ready for them if they do come to pick me up. But I know how freakin' tired I am going to be when that alarm goes off tomorrow. Last week I was right to stay in bed for the rest of the week. If I had tried to get up I would be even more tired and stressed. So do I sleep in tomorrow and wait to hear from them? Right now I say "definitely no... get up and be ready" but I just don't know if I am going to have the willpower tomorrow.

Its been getting harder and harder to sleep at night too, even though I have been trying to sleep less during the day. Mostly I feel anxious at night. Today I was out of bed all day (after going back to sleep when the bus didn't show). I am so tired.

And I have to reply to my boss before I go to bed tonight, that's going to be even more stress.

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I've been complaining a lot lately haven't I.