Wow I find that what u said was beautiful.In reality it isn't but I find it beautiful because my bf has aspergers syndrome and his life sounded identical to urs until he met me.People with Autism always feel that way.Alone like they can never have a real connection with anyone and are never good enough no matter how they try.Keep ur head up and ur heart open.There will be someone or something out there that is going to be the answer to ur hard feelings.And that is all ur going to need just that one thing.Don't give up.