I have overwhelming feelings of shame and guilt, I just can't let the past go. I have been, for the better part of my life, a very responsible person. Back before I was diagnosed Bi-Polar, I had some issues with drinking and driving. I realize now that when I experienced manic periods, I would hit the bars seeking one night stands. In order for me to sustain the courage to converse with a women, I had to fill up with alcohol. I then threw all judgment and self control out the window. I was arrested on 3 occasions between the years of 1994-2001 and I thank God I didn't injure or kill an innocent person. My last drink was on 01/31/2001. I was never physically addicted to alcohol and never drank in a consistent manner. I was a binge drinker, and I would go out once a month to "party". I am not shifting the blame solely on my condition, I am also partly to blame for my past legal issues. I am consumed with guilt for conducting myself in such an irresponsible manner, and ashamed of how I let a lot of people down. I am stuck and cannot move ahead. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.