Jmall, get evaluated by a different psychiatrist.

You seem to have self-esteem issues. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy may help: http://www.behavioralassociates.com/cbt.asp
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/15-...e-distortions/
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/fixing-cognitive-distortions/

Comparing yourself to your brothers does nothing to better your life. Getting better is hard work: http://www.helpguide.org/mental/ment...nal_health.htm
http://www.psychologytoday.com/print/1752

Good luck.