anxiety, fear and trembling all take its toll as I wait to go to partial tomorrow...wondering what the heck persuaded me to go back to a hospital where I am locked behind doors for hours on end...what the heck was I thinking??? For the first time I have had time to really think about that and now i am dizzy from all the implications of being in a program again...it makes no sense at all...please think of us tomorrow...we are scared down to the inner layers of people...thanks...