I'm just really scared on how to live with his children. I don't know how to turn my life upside down, sideways blah blah. I feel I'm not ready to share my life with four other children. I don't know how to take of them. I don't even know how to talk to kids in general. I'm selfish i suppose and I still want to live my life for myself and share it with my bf and only him but now the time is coming close and his children will come back soon. I supported him all the way to get his kids back. I am the one that loaned him $2,000 to hire a lawyer to take his ex to court. It is a ugly mess.