Again we all know that I am lazy (you all helped me identify that because I was probably too lazy to do it on my own). Ideological thinking about child support won't help me get unlazy. That is established.

I might be headed in the right direction I guess. I just have to get motivated.

You know the weird thing is....I am just 35 but I stopped running around the yard and playing with my kids when I turned 28 because my mind says that I am too old.

To be honest, if I drop something on the ground it feels like I have a flu if I go pick it up. My legs and arms feel sore like I have just excercised. Can depression do that?

When things were a little bit better financially I was able to take some VERY SERIOUS self defense classes without issue so I don't think it is physiological.

Maybe I am more depressed and/or lazy all the way around?

I used to be so industrious in my personal life before I moved to the UK for a while. I'll blame the UK.

I want to lay on the sofa all day and drink and smoke. I am not kidding or trying to be funny either. I want to get paid and not even have to get up to go to work.