don't ever apologize for coming here WePow!!!!!!! We're here for you! The PC folk span the globe, someone is here most any time.

If you have no words for what you're carrying right now, can you maybe fold it up and put it into a corner somewhere, and go out into the sunshine for a few quiet minutes? feel the breeze, listen to whatever sounds are near you? IDK, walk to the mailbox and back, or around yr house or down the block and back?.

BTW if you have a dog or cat outside, say hello. They don't talk much, but they hug great, and they're good listeners.