I am feeling a lot better guys, I'm really sorry about this thread. I was in the middle of a breakdown and went absolutely of my tree.
Sugahorse I don't take medication, I don't need medication. I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I was on a list of different medications for nearly 10 years and none of them did anything. Then my doctor put me on Zyprexa a few years ago, I refuse to take medication since. My issues are not caused by anything that will be solved by medication, I know what I need- people who actually give a crap about me, and a job. Both of those things will give me something to feel worthwhile and make me feel like I'm wanted. I was born as an accident, and it seems to have followed me. All I want is for someone to care about me, you know? I can't talk too much about it though or I'll end up like a few hours ago. I ended up going to sleep, it's the only option I really have.