Evening,
You're not an accident! Also, if you have to vent, please do! I'm glad you took a few moments to get a few problems out in the open. Everybody deserves to have those moments, and you certainly are no exception!

Hey, hey, hey, wait a sec, I care about you, and heck, so does all of PC!! You're just as loved as any other user, and we'll all ensure this.
As for the job, look around! I know getting a job isn't easy, but it's not impossible. There's a job waiting for you, and all you have to do is venture! You can do it!!
(Geez, I'm sounding as loud as Billy Mays, and I'm just typing. -_-')

Anyway, keep posting Evening, and relax!