Deli-
Please reach out to Austin-T there is so much going on. He may not want to talk about the SUI (which I find weird) but there is still the boy stuff and the school stuff and the family stuff. All of this it would help to talk about. And if you talk about it it may make the SUI stuff feel less pressing. Also do what others have said. Contact Pdocs secretary, keep calling along with texting. Does he have anyone covering his practice while he is away that you could talk to? You matter so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know you are in such a dark place right now. And it is really hard to reach out for help. But please, please, reach out for it. Keep coming here and posting and keep reaching out to Austin T and Pdoc.