Ok, so how does it happen? I am sitting here a complete mess. I have been good friends with my neighbor for 3 years. He is married too. We are both having issues in our marriage. I really know how to pick them too. He was on parole for drug smuggling. He owns nothing. He seemed like a nice guy. Always complimented me and started spending alot of time with my son who is 14. He always wanted to take my son somewhere. He told me he knew if he could get to my son and show interest in him, that he could get to me. Scary. Well he did get to me and I fell for it. He said everything I wanted to hear that my husband has not been saying. Me and my husband have not been intimate in 3 years, not even kissing or hugging, and we have slept apart for 11 years. It was killing me. I was lonely. I am still lonely. I feel broken. I feel like I am on the edge. Now this guy says we need to each work on our marriages because it is wrong to be together. We did not sleep together, thank God. I bought him a straight talk phone Friday and clothes because he left all of his stuff and his wife wouldnt let him have it. He told me all weekend he loved me, wanted to be with me. Then yesterday he texted we need to talk. But he wouldn't tell me why. This morning he texted me to tell me to save my family and marriage. He said he loved me but that he couldn't be with me because he misses his kids because he missed them growing up because he was in prison. Anyways, I told him I loved him and wanted to be with him and I would help him in any way I could. Then I got pissed. I canceled the auto pay on his phone which I bought and then I canceled his service on the phone because I was the one that set it up for him and I knew all the information to cancel the phone. Dumb ***. So he still has the phone, but if he wants it to work again ,he has to buy a new card to get it to work. Revenge? Yes.

How do I get through this? Did I love him? Or was I inlove with someone wanting me? Was it dangerous and manipulative how he spent time with my son to get to me? Help me.