Thank you all so much. My T came through - he emailed me. Ugggggg. Today was just so so hard. I just sent him another email just to vent some more and then I went in my bedroom and bawled for a bit. Ugg. I just got into a downward spiral and I was lost. Thank you all for being here for me. It is so much appriciated!!! I still am crying a bit but I will be OK . I just hate having triggers hit like that. ugggg!