Thanks Bloom and Opaquemind

Opaquemind he is aware that it's hard for me at the moment.. It's not that I am not over my ex just that I am so frightened of getting hurt.. He says he has no intentions of ever hurting me and he seems serious when he says it...

I think I just have to take one day at a time, enjoy the feeling of being happy and try not to let the past experience ruin what could be a beautiful time in my life.

Bloom you are so right in not wanting to know all his deep dark secrets right now I know that I am not sharing everything with him about my past.. but the truth is that the past needs to stay there.. it can't become my future as well or I will never find true happiness again.

Last night he said he had some good news and some bad news... my heart dropped into my tummy.. I had no idea what the news was going to be and it scared me - all that went through my head is that he didn't want to be with me anymore... Of course that wasn't it - it was that he might be back sooner than expected but that he also might have to go work further away eventually... (contacts have been lost by the company etc) none of it has been decided yet but he was just letting me know.

I need a little more confidence in myself.. and at the moment I am finding it hard to find..