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wow, that is a lot of cr@p to handle at once. i am so sorry life is just so hard for you, but i do understand how that feels all too well. it's true though that things will be better in a little bit as you get through this awful spot you're in. pdoc will come back, so will roomie, you can ask family for what you need (they might not realize you'd like to join them), you'll find another job or they'll rehire you when times are better, you can re-enter uni and there are definitely more fish in the sea. as for your health you beat this mystery disease before so you'll likely beat it again. as someone who has a mystery disease as well i know sometimes they are stress-induced. maybe it is your body's way of telling you you are doing too much and need to slow down. don't give up dear deli. i used to be horribly depressed most of the time and i'm not that way anymore. if things can change for me they can change for anyone!