Wow Granite! I am so sorry your therapist will not allow letters. One of the ways I cope between sessions is to write out my feelings into letters that I can send to my therapist. There is no limit on the amount of letters I can write to her. She reads everyone of them. I generally see her once a week but now that she is on vacation I will not see her for 3 weeks which will be difficult but I can write as much as I need to or work in my art journal and bring that into my next session or I can do both. Sometimes I feel afraid in my sessions but she is gentle and allows me time to gather my thoughts. Sometimes I have no words for what I am feeling and I feel really mixed up. I let her know when I feel that way. She told me that a lot of the reason I cannot come up with words is because a lot of what happened to me was pre-verbal when I was very young. I appreciate her patience with me. You deserve patience and understanding from your therapist also.