((((((((Lorna))))))))
Were so sorry you are in such pain and then the mental pain and maybe feeling stuck.
We feel that way like if they would act like I'm Julie Roberts then and only then I would be helped in someway but I'm not julie roberts so anyway back to the real world...
Have you tried calming music with visual imagery????
I am so sorry you are hurting, you so don't deserve this!
Were sending all our support and care your way, tell me when it hits you

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Take care our friend!,

Crew