((((((((((Deli))))))))))))

i know this sucks big time - it feels like the whole world is crumbling - and maybe it is ... maybe th old world needs to crumble to make way for the new -

I am glad you are living out of home - that was a giant move you made - brave and resourceful and i know how hard that must have been for you -

as others have said this is perhaps an ending of these things - perhaps another direction wil open up for you - a better one - perhaps you willjust rest and then take up the threads and weave a better life for yourself

feeling overwhelmed ....i hate that... and im sorry i cant remember who said it - but they are right - just take one thing at a time ok - thats all you ahve to do - and if that one thing is surviving this - then thats enough - when you are better you can get another job -

there are places that take medicare that wil do the tests you need - there are drs that bulk bill - explain the situation to them and they wil et you know whetre - i recently told my dentist i had $300 and that was it - the work i need done is going to cost - first phase $1300 - we are looking at ways around it .. i have had tests that should have cost me heaps and my dr has found clinics that do thme under medicare or near enough... tlak to your dr

talk to austin T - even if its jjust to let off the steam thats building up - and pdoc - we all know somtimes he can be out of touch or reach when you need him but he aklways comes through when he gets back to tyou - hold on - keep trying

I havnt been around much and for that im sorry - but i and everyone here is here to support and help you or just to listen yto you adn sit wiht you my dear friend

theres a poem i cant remember - sorr y my memory sucks - but it is about keeping on when you dont want to and one line i rem,ember is " rest if you must, but dont you quit" so Deli dearest - rest if you must - but dont quit - please dont quit

sits down next to you .....