Only 23 hours until I see my T. I am so anxious! I only wrote my T once today... and he did write back - from his iphone even :-) I kept looking at that email at work and it was like water to a man lost in the desert. I didn't just WANT my T yesterday - I NEEDED him. And he did come through. Isn't that strange when sometimes in the therapy healing you really do NEED your T to be there for you? I can't explain how I felt or knew the difference, but it was as real as night and day!

It still bothers me a little that I can have days when I NEED my T. I want to be all well and not need him that way when I get lost inside. You know, it reminds me of the terror of learning how to ride a bike!! You can feel when the hands are not there to hold you up and it feels very freeing - but it makes your heart race!!! And I get so afraid that when I do NEED my T that he will not be there and I will crash. But he was there yesterday and now I have to process through it all with him. I want it to be T time right now!!! :-)