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anderson · Jul 13, 2010, 06:25 PM

Same story

different people but so tired of repeating our selves!

In the past two years we have been dealing with people that say that we be with them willing. Now because DID is not commonly known or understood. It has appeared that we have been this way. It seems few people truly understand that with DID that the main survival skill is to keep the abuse from each other.
We told our T today that we have no problem telling people to leave us alone it is the abuse that we have endured afterwards when no one else is around to help us keep safe. That has stopped us from telling people to leave us alone.
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Right now we are dealing with memoirs of abuse that we can not give a date or time to but to us it feels like it just happened yesterday. How can you tell a person that has never lived with abusive programming that you the main person go under when the body is being hurt until those within can clean up the body and hide the burses from you. Heck, they have to accept DID first to even begin to understand how our mind works to keep those with in safe. We are so tired of those that have hurt us then tell everybody their twisted version of the story. It is because of these people that we are having problems with be accepted by those within the community. We starting telling people at church if we do not remember it then it was not consensual.
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We know that there is more that we do not remember. The parts that hurt is that these people have come close to us in public then act like we be the ones to have issues when the knowledge of the abuse is shared. This only happens when we feel safe from more abuse by the person.
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There are those that want us to go back to work but we really do not see the sense of doing this if we still have to live under the weight of those that hurt us and we have no way of protecting our selvs from future abuse by those that have no problem forcing themselves unto us and because of our MI status we are open season for more abuse.
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Just tired and those within are so tired that those that should be helping us still try the number “How well do you remember and are you sure you are not remembering the abuse before you came here? “ I and those with in are so tired of the False memoir syndrome. And if It was false memoir syndrome Then why are these people making a reputation for getting laid by this body with their circle of friends?