i am so sad feel like everything is so horrible i am all alone. My whole life is falling apart faster now it always was but slowly. Hes guilt tripping me cause i hurt so bad cause of my eating disorder. Ive always been there 4him ive tried to help he pushes me away because of my problems. Hes never understood that im at my best when im helping someone. So now i have 2go away to a eating disorder facility in a couple weeks hes making things so hard for me. I can feel his anger his hatred. He is so distant from me. It hurts so bad i feel like my world is being torn apart. I feel like if the days continue this way i cant handle it anymore i want to self injure i feel like it would turn bad something i may not make it out of. and if i do it would make everything worse. Im trying 2hold myself together but hes making it so hard and i have no one 2turn to. I made him my everything.