Summer.

Such a hated season for people who cut.

I am and ex-cutter and my friend has invited me to her birthday party. She's my closest friend, I can't just say no -- right? It's on July 20. Tuesday. I have seven days to think about how I will figure this out. I have scars all over my left wrist.

My mom is in India for work she'll be gone for 18 days, and she brought her makeup too. So I can't ask her for any makeup to coverup my scars. I have no bracelet or hair ties. No thin long sleeved t-shirts. No light jackets or arm warmers. And I would really rather not use my left hand for the whole time I'll be there or just let my arms be on display for everyone.

And July 20th is the hottest day of the week. 90 degrees. Ugh. I guess I should be at least a little happy because it at 5:30 PM. Either way, it stays hot until about 7 or so.

...I'm scared. I feel so hopeless right now. Most people who don't cut have no idea how many issues can happen in one day with scars.

Can you guys help me? I don't blame you if you can't. /: