How do you know if you have an eating disorder? I mean really know. Who am I kidding I think I do - I have never talked about my eating habits with anyone.

I seem to just eat and eat - I had lost about 50 lbs (healthy way) about 2 years ago and for the first time felt good about myself. Well thinking I had conquered my eating demons I let myself "go". I have gained about 25lbs back and feel awful. Yet not awful enough to do anything about it. Lazy? maybe. I say I am going to do something but then I don't. There are times I will eat so much at one meal and feel like blahhhhhhhhhh and so full after. I do not make myself sick so I keep telling myself I do not have a problem.

I do feel like I do not have control over my eating (most of the time).

Now that I have put this down I am thinking of printing it and sending it to my T. Not sure.

Thanks for listening.