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Originally Posted by rainbow8
(((((granite)))))
I'm always affected by your posts because of my history of "not talking." In therapy, we are focusing on that as the root of my problems. You said you don't have "selective mutism" but I wonder if the label matters. I wonder if your T has read information about that subject. Did you ever read books by Torey Hayden? She worked with children who couldn't talk. One of her books is Murphy's Boy, and it is about a boy who had such a terrible past that he became mute. Torey worked with him and he learned to trust her and overcame his mutism. There are professionals who have studied selective mutism and know what kind of therapy techniques are helpful. I wish that I could ask your T if she has read anything about it.
I'm wondering why writing is easier for you, and why you are comfortable posting here? I know, for me, the words just pour out in writing, but speaking has always been a struggle. It's about anxiety and fear of being judged, about being seen. No one sees you when they read your writing. But if you read it or it's read to you, they do see you. Then the person reacts to the words in person, and it's hard to deal with that.
I'm rambling, but I just want you to know I understand how hard it is to get the words out. People would beg me to talk to them but I couldn't. It was so painful.  |
my dear rain thanks for your post it does seem like you get it
esp about being able to write and post here i could never be this open with T but i'm working on it.one thing that is happening to me is after T i seem to be all brave and full of great ideas for growth, like i'm going to talk about this or that, or i'm going to do this or that.it is a great feeling BUT after a day or so things get back to normal and the idea of saying anything terrifies me.so this time in all my bravery i sent the letter in the mail back to T because she wants to read it to me and this way i cant refuse.of course i did this when i was all brave.now i'm just terrified of hearing her speaking my words.but i dont need to speak just listen.
T seems to talk a lot more also. i dont know if i like this either.she use to sit and just let us be quiet sometimes for the entire sesson.kind of strange it seems like T has turned into someone else durring my last few sessons, with the talking,she will only read letters outloud with me in room,asking for one word all the time,saying my name before she talks ,and just little things.IDK what to think of it.
no i havnt read any books by tori hayden but it sounds interesting.ill look it up