(((((((((((((((seventyeight))))))))))))))

I just had my post-vacation session with T yesterday, and it was really nice...connected and friendly and intimate.

Earlier in therapy, it was a lot harder for me to reconnect after a vacation (and it still is sometimes). A lot of times, all of the feelings I was avoiding while he was gone - missing him, feeling lonely or angry, feeling sad - would come rushing back. I remember one time I just went and laid on the couch and cried for an hour (!).

It seems like the more I will allow myself to FEEL while he is gone - feel that I miss him, feel that I love him, feel the connection - the easier it is to reconnect when he comes back. When I shut down to get through his absence, it's harder.

The good thing is that no matter HOW the first session back goes, we always find our groove again eventually

I'm glad she'll be back soon. Vacations are hard!