I don't want to make decisions for him I just want to be able to get answers. He has had no problem in the past keeping me in the loop, we worked together. Should I just accept his disappearance and forget I was ever married to him? Would that make you guys feel better? I'm sorry, I am not a robot with no emotions who can just not deal with my situation. Am I supposed to just move on like nothing happened and wait for him to end up dead or come home?

@ perpetuallysad: I'm sorry that you and your husband don't trust each other enough to tell each other everything and share in health concerns. How sad. I am not offended, I am disgusted. I am already bitter with the system so how I feel now or later isn't going to matter.