hey there Momma
I am "fortunate" enough to be able to work - barely.
I feel like a burden on friends when I ask them for encouragement. When I complain about how I cannot cope, how I've had enough.
All my friends seem to hear from me is moaning. It causes me guilt too. I wish I wasn't this way.
Don't be hard on yourself - you have a disability and need to take care of yourself. In whatever way.
Those friends that stick around and look after you - they are VERY special!