I just dont think i can face going through everything again - i made an appt a while ago wiht a new T then laid in bed tillthe appointment time was past and i had no hope of gettingthere and rung up and apologised...

so i dont think that wil happen.. i guess ive been off denying and evading thigns again - thats why my flat looks like a tip lol - maybe him calling me just reminded me how much more i have to do..that Im still not managing to keep present and keep my affairs in order...and that ..well...that the only T of the 4 ? ive seen that helped me is gone..
just feeling sorry for myself maybe? buck up your ideas P7 lol

thanks for you replies - i do appreciate them.

P7