I did eat another sandwich tonight. Filled me up.

I've been hesitant to say "anxiety" in my posts because I don't feel like I am having an anxiety attack. I also don't feel the same way I did when I was first hit by depression, which as racing thoughts at night, very bad, keeping me awake all night.

What I have now is a sort of low level anxiety. I can feel my heart beating just a little faster than normal. The problem is that it is constant. It came on as soon as I was eating tonight. It gets triggered by almost anything... on TV anything about cars, homes, money, jobs, etc... even the fact that it is slightly chilly in my house now and I still haven't paid the oil bill from last winter.

And once it starts it keeps going, like the energizer bunny. Nothing I do seems to be able to relax it... meditation, music, breathing, etc. And it is part of what is keeping me up at night.

Something definitely for me to talk about tomorrow in group.

Thank you everyone. I know how negative I have been but its just stuff I need to get out.