I know, I know...if I stop taking them again I'll end up back in the hospital. But darn it all I hate them! I want to think clearly. I don't want to be mentally ill. I want just to be normal. I'm sick of people looking at me like I'm going to break. I keep thinking if I back off the haldol, just a little things might be clearer. I might be a better wife and mother. Freaking pills...I really hate them.