(((((((((( blackcanary )))))))))) (((( all ))))

Thank you all tons for being there when I NEEDED you guys there. Session today was WONDERFUL !!!! I was able to honestly process a LOT with T. Of course I could talk with him for hours and hours (oh wait - I have) But I could have gone on and on.

I finally GOT IT that I was ALLOWED to have NEEDS!! I NEED my T. It is not just a want that I should feel guilty about in any way. I NEED to have T in my life. It is risky... I know that... to allow myself to need someone. But the truth is I did need others before but they let me down so I thought that was my fault and I thought that my pain was my fault becuase I was not "strong enough" to not "want" their help or support.

Boy howdy what a different way of looking at the world!!!