Day 3

Today was fricking hard...there just is no other way to say it...it all started during Grief class and went downhill from there...boy did I dissociate thoroughly...knew that it was happening but I just didn't care at that point...one of my littlest alters--Joy--came out and was quite sad...the grief class got me thinking about all the losses in my life...my dad specifically...and then I started crying...couldn't stop...wanted to get out of class in the worst way but contained myself until class was over...I haven't felt the same since...I am supposed to do homework for tonight but I just don't have the strength to pull myself together enough to do it...I guess I can do it tomorrow morning during class because I won't see my T until after the class...right now all I want to do is sleep and forget all about today...i am crying now as I remember...perhaps it would be good if I just went to my bedroom and wrote down what I am supposed to write down for her so that we can actually talk about stuff when we meet...god this headache of mine is wearing me out...think I will just go and lay down and write...see you all tomorrow...hopefully tomorrow will be better...we will see...