This evening was horrible.

I didn't even seem to have a trigger, and I just suddenly felt super depressed, wanted to self-harm & also felt suicidal. However, in my room in the hospital there isn't anything to hurt myself with. So I've been biting myself, and scratching. I was crying too. Just wanted to die, but couldn't.

I talked to my nurse about how I was feeling, which helped a bit. Now I'm just starting to level off...still feeling down though.

I just feel hopeless. My doc says it will take MONTHS before I notice any changes in my Borderline behaviours. It's very discouraging. :/

How do you guys deal with your feelings of depression, suicidal urges, or urges to self-harm?