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Hey, just by typing this post....something came to mind....Perhaps I am afraid of getting close to T, afraid of letting myself FEEL close to him. I am having trouble grasping the idea of intimacy and am leery about the authenticity of his care for me. I'm paying him for this "modeling", after all.
And the other more obvious issue is that I've been very giving of myself to those that have ultimately hurt me, again and again, in awful ways. So, I am generally very guarded with my feelings.
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hi mue, interesting that these two issues are coming up now, on the heels of your therapist's vacation. i think it's definitely related. it sounds like him leaving has triggered you in some way, and now you're struggling with getting close to him and being guarded about your feelings. i think it's normal, he left - and your protective mechanisms went off. maybe that's something you can talk about..