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mixedup_emotions · Jul 15, 2010, 10:33 AM

Thanks, everyone, for your insight.

I guess it will be worth exploring in therapy today. *sigh*

I just can't seem to wrap my mind around it or know how to describe my feelings. At the moment, I'm just overwhelmed with sadness and anxiety....just too much going on, and such despair in my life. I hate it. I really do. I've shut myself off from the world. My daughter is with her dad on vacation at the moment, and I'm glad she's not around because I don't have the energy to take care of her the way she deserves to be taken care of.

We had some serious rain here yesterday, and our neighborhood was flooded. Luckily, no water got in the house because I have the garage sandbagged...but stuff in my yard floated to a corner of the yard, my new lawnmower and other equipment was under water, my shed was filled with at least a couple feet of water - and I haven't been able to assess the damage yet.

Then, some creepy guy was going door to door in my neighborhood. My one neighbor answered it and recognized immediately that something was not right - and he called the cops. The cops arrived just as the guy was approaching my house!....Not sure what happened there.

Then, I found out that a couple weeks ago, a house a couple streets away was ambushed by some robbers who gagged them and tied them up, then took off with their belongings. I live in a nice neighborhood - yet this stuff is happening?

My ex has been clingy towards me - and actually stunned me with hugging and kissing me the other day. I was caught off guard. ACK. So, I had to diffuse that situation and put it back in its proper place.

Then, my CEO, this morning, basically chastised me in front of senior management.....

I hate this.