That is a beautiful and honest email, WePow. Thank you for sharing it. I know I would feel hurt if my T didn't respond to an email like that, but I've forgotten if you have an agreement with your T to answer your emails if you don't specifically ask him to. I know he doesn't answer you right away, but does he kNOW you want an answer, or do you need to say "T, I NEED an answer to this email.?"

I know I may think T should KNOW I want an answer, but I also know it's best if I tell her that in each email just to be sure, otherwise she may not answer.

I totally understand your feelings here, but it's not that T is silent, it's just that he hasn't answered you YET, for reasons that you don't know, but most likely have nothing at all to do with his caring about you. It's like you set yourself up to be hurt by him, giving him a test to see if he REALLY meant what he said. But it's not an accurate test, in my opinion. Since he didn't respond right away, he failed the test and therefore you made a serious mistake. I get that your heart goes that way, but it's not true. You're not "alone again". Can you see that T is with you even if he didn't answer your email yet?

I don't know if I'm being clear or not because I suffer from the same feelings. If T says she cares, why can't she answer me NOW? Right now? Drop everything in her life and pay attention to ME!!!! That's what I would want and need, but it's not going to happen because, although I'm important to her, her life doesn't revolve around me.