Perna... thank you. I know you are right. He did nothing wrong. He is just doing his T thing. I am too needy. I am so angry with myself at this whole non-sense!! I will never ever again send him an email - I don't care what happens or how I feel. I will save it for session time.

It doesn't matter anymore anyway. Story of my stupid life. Too needy. I just need to learn from this pain and stop being so stupid with stuff. NO ONE will ever be able to be there for me in that way. It is ok now. I knew it from when I was a kid and it just hasn't changed. I just was dumb ... so so stupid... I let myself believe again and I know better than to do that. I know better. Never ever again as long as I live will I ever again ever allow myself to hope in that way... that was my bad... i was hoping for something I knew the universe would never allow anyway. Who am I to think I deserve that type of relationship with anyone.

It is ok. I am mad... but just at myself now. I just can't believe I was so foolish.