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I REALY want to punch myself right now or slap myself around a bit!!!
I can't believe it... I trusted T and put all my trust into one basket and handed it over like a big idiot.... He don't know how much this got to me and now I will never ever tell him....

I am in shock with how I allowed myself to open up and trust when I knew I should never do that. What is wrong with me??? What level of punishment do I need to make it so I will not be that STUPID!!!!!