Well miracle of miracles my son got my laptop working. It is worse for the punishment but it works. The screen hing is kind of loose but otherwise it works. Who would have thought! I guess all the peices that scattered went back into place. They are tougher then I thought. He kept telling me that when he said he could fix it and I insisted it was a lost cause and not to waste his time.
You were right Perpetualsad.... he was just giving me space to cool down. After I went to his room to apologize I went for a walk to the river. When I got back he had the labtop working and dinner cooking. He is such a sweet heart. It also turned out I had misunderstood the job business so all is well on that front too.

I will take your advice and talk with him about his dad's visit. I am sure he will help me out. He already said he would help me get all the papers to the recycle depot tomorrow.

Thank you BlackPup. Fortunately the wind did settle down so I made it outside afterall. I feel much better but like my poor laptop I am a little worse for the episode. I am not going to look anymore for my mother's will. My brother will just have to figure something else out.

YOu are right Perpetuallysad.... I don't take meds and it has been pretty hairy lately. I used to have a therapist but he took a leave to adopt a child and his replacement didn't work out for me so I didn't go back after our first meeting. No other options without travelling an hour out of town. It took me a long time to open up and I haven't been willing to try again. I was waiting for him to come back but I found out a couple of months ago that he isn't coming back at all. His replacement is still there and still not an option for me.

I appreciate your offer to let me rant at you on occassion. It helps to let it out when it gets to overload like today. Been having a lot of these days lately.

Thanks for being here with me my friends. I am doing okay now. The mess is out of sight and I am sitting back watching So You Think You Can Dance. Tonight I rest and tomorrow will take care of itself.