ive been trying to cut back on my acts of self harming.. But it just doesnt seem worth having to fight back the need.. Which to me seems stronger than i am. I try the stuff you guys say to but NOTHING has yet to help me.. And i cant hold myself back forever, seems like today would have been my break down day.. But my brother broke the lamp and it cut me on its own and i loved it, now i cant stop touching it.
this sounds nothing like me, but it is me, the me i hide. And im sick of hiding it. I need help. I want to be the me i use to be. It just seems impossible these days. I let this sick twisted way of relief take over me.. Someone see me out of it, please.. Or show me some light outa this dark twisted way of life.