You guys make me wish I could try the meds again. I couldn't manage the side effects or the hassles with too many change of doctors. If only I had a doctor I could trust to stick around long enough to find the combo that would work and is willing to hold my hand through the process. I am getting tired of the roller coaster ride. Even though I have an arsonal of skills for coping the extremes I always seem to be either in recovery or treating myself with kid gloves to hold back an episode.

Its such tricky business this bi polar. I try to convince myself that I can manage the symptoms but the evidence likely suggests the contrary.