You are not a burden. if you had a friend with no legs who needed help to shop etc., would you allow that person to feel like a burden? Would you feel that they were a burden?

Sometimes you may not hear from them for reasons entirely other than anything having to do with you. It sounds like the inappropriate guilt associated with depression is taking jabs at you....not to mention that it can be hard on our pride (even if it shouldn't be) to let others help us. Everyone needs help sometimes and it sounds like the people in your life truly care. Give them the benefit of the doubt. Maybe have a gentle and honest conversation about this with them. Make sure there is open communication. It's better than worrying, right? Worry leads to guilt which leads to depression which leads to guilt which leads to low self-esteem and feeling of worthlessness which leads to.....you get my point. Have some faith in the love and deep caring of those around you. They seem toshow it often enough, so try to trust it...I know that can be hard, but maybe if you can work on trying to feel you deserve the same compassion and friendship and love you would show to your friends and loved ones in similar situations, you can look at it with fresh eyes.

Your issues warrant posting here every single bit as much as anyone else's. Everyone communicates differently, but we all listen, we all get it, we all care, and above all else, we want you to feel free and welcome to post.