Maybe she is just willing to try anything and she isn't sure what will work with you? This is your therapy and you have every right to direct it. You can take the lead and she will be there to help you.

If you disappear during your therapy what good is that?

You hope that she has your needs in mind? I'm sure that she has very good intentions but the only person who will be the best at your needs is YOU.

The best antidote for feeling out of control and scared is being empowered. The first step to being empowered is moving forward with your needs.

It isn't so simple, however. Focusing on your needs can bring forward all sorts of fears like punishment, withdrawal of love, etc. What comes to mind when you think about meeting your needs? Does it bring fear?