((((Calista+12))))

Thank you for posting and for reaching out. I am glad that you are back and that you are letting us know how you are. Please never feel that you do not deserve support or care. There is no set posts or support you have to give for so many times we are all in different places and may not be able to post.

Our support is always here for you and it does not matter how long you have been away. I know that you are not okay and hurting, and I am so glad you could reach out and tell us that. Being who and what you are is important for so many of us could never be who we were. To be honest we are not okay either so we hear you loud and clear.

I am sorry that your family has pushed you out of their lives. I do hear you. What your husband is doing is not supportive and I know it hurts. I went through that too and it is so hard. I am so sorry that he uses your hurt against you. It is not okay for him to do that.

You have a right to your feelings and you also have a right to be heard and cared about. For so long we had no right to our feelings but now you do. (And even back then we had a right they just did not let us know that and we had to believe to survive.)

I want you to know that we are here for you to support, listen, encourage, walk, believe, and give you as many safe hugs as you can take. We do hear you and are so sorry that you are being treated this way.

I do understand that feeling that it is not safe to need. But if we do not take the risk to reach then we shut ourself off from those that do care and are here for you. I know when we have been hurt so many times it is hard and feelings of not being worth it rise within.

But we do care and we are listening. We get what you are saying and we do understand. For so long we did not allow anyone to see our hurt except through our words. Tears did not exist and feelings were smashed to almost non-existance.

We were ready to give up totally, but we took the chance to reach one more time and in that reach we found belief and support that we did not know existed. Sometimes still we try to push that support away from feelings of non-deserving and from fear. Fear that it will eventually leave like it always did.

But something inside keeps holding on and hoping that it is okay. You took that chance and reached and we are reaching back. Take our hand as you can. It is okay to feel what you feel and to have the emotions you have. They are your emotions and feelings and no one has the right to take them away----ever.

We accept you for who you are, where you are, and we believe and validate how you are feeling. Please keep postng and reaching out. Love you. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps