i started cutting again after years ofnot cutting. now i cant stop. it was every 2 days or more. now im cutting daily and i still think about it. it use to supress my suicidal urges. but now they came back too. if i tell my therapist he will admit me again. and i dont want that so i am trying to do it on my own. i dont know how much more before give in. he made me promise if it (my plan) changed at all to call. i dont want to. i dont know what to do. im alone and hurting. ive been going through this like a merry go round for almost a year. this time im loosing.