Wepow
That damned rollercoaster ride! Trust...No trust... I know cause I'm riding it now. Each "occurance" feels just as fresh as the first...whether that first be in our childhood or not. It's a very raw pain that hurts all through the body. Next thing you know...all is well and we're comfy and secure, then BAMMM! again...
It Isn't you at all....from what I'm told, it's human nature/miscommunication/ mistakes/and all random bs.
take it easy on yourself please