posting again coz i am so confused, angry they left me to cope with this on my own,
cant stop my brain, started on some meds to calm me down, hate taking anti-psychotics even if for the depression and to calm me.

had nightmares x 4 last night, woke at 5.30, its 8.30 here.

not sure how to cope with this and scared it will get to much and with SI.