thank you people for the kindness. today is day twenty-eight at increased dose of medication. very unpleasant and pdoc is urging another two to four weeks if possible.

sure.........why would we need sleep? or to eat? or to function? we can just ride out the side effects every day for another month. it isn't like our life matters during these times. harumph! cranky about this and feeling so discouraged at this being yet another solid attempt at a med trial that appears to not be working out. (not that we know anything after all these years and all these med trials and what this body has been through....)

between the medications and with medicare kicking in soon all benefits change so in another month finances switch back to precariously tight from slight breathing room.

been taking dog to ocean w/ friend. so far seems to be weekly date. made conscious choice to plug back into a certain community IRL and that is requiring focus and time. so far feels like a good choice.

thanks again for remaining yourselves and not pulling tricks.

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